Freefall

So the past couple of mornings I have woken up with a song stuck in my head, but only part of it.  So I pulled it up on I-Tunes and listened to what it was saying.  As I played it and looked at the lyrics I was astonished to realized that they described my situation perfectly.  The song tells the story of someone who has taken a huge leap of faith and is in between the decision to make the leap and the end result.  But in the midst of all that the uncertainty of when they will get there and how they will get there and what will happen now, they feel security because God is holding them through it all.  In the eyes of any other person the jump was a crazy move to make and any other person should be terrified; but the person knows that because they are following God, He is carrying them through it all.  After the second time through the song I couldn't believe it.  This was describing my situation and what I was feeling.  I have taken this huge leap of faith, having to trust God to provide for me, to lead me, to teach me through everything.  From the outside many people would think that this kind of lifestyle is crazy, having to fund raise, work with students, and do ministry work.  But, I can rest safe and secure in the knowledge that have nothing to fear and that I am not alone because God is holding me through it all.  Even when it feels like I am falling because of the uncertainty, I know that God is holding onto me.  So I am blessed to be in this place where I have no choice but to trust that God will bring me through and provide all I need.  Not everyone get's the chance to understand what it means to trust that God will provide everything.  It might be hard but I know that I will only grow closer to God because of it.  There is no choice but to get closer because the closer to Him I get the safer I will be.  So I can rest assured that: 

I'm not afraid
I know I'm safe
It's a chance but my choice is made
I'm not alone
You won't let go
And I know through it all
You hold me in the freefall

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Freefall by Royal Tailor

Two steps beyond the edge
I can't undo this leap of faith
Takes my breath away
So high above the ground
You've got me hanging in mid air
Between here and there
Now all I have is You

I'm not afraid
I know I'm safe
It's a chance but my choice is made
I'm not alone
You won't let go
And I know through it all
You hold me in the freefall

If I just believe my eyes
I'd see I should be terrified
But I'm so alive
I don't know how or when
But I believe that You'll come through
Lord, I'm trusting You
Can't wait to see what You will do

I'm not afraid
I know I'm safe
It's a chance but my choice is made
I'm not alone
You won't let go
And I know through it all
You hold me in the freefall

I'm falling, I'm falling, I'm falling

You got me falling from the sky with no parachute
Thinking I can fly but I know it's You
Got me up here, no fear, no tears
Mind's clear 'cause I know You're here
Can't wait to see what You will do

I'm not afraid
I know I'm safe
It's a chance but my choice is made
I'm not alone
You won't let go
And I know through it all
You hold me in the freefall