Freefall

So the past couple of mornings I have woken up with a song stuck in my head, but only part of it.  So I pulled it up on I-Tunes and listened to what it was saying.  As I played it and looked at the lyrics I was astonished to realized that they described my situation perfectly.  The song tells the story of someone who has taken a huge leap of faith and is in between the decision to make the leap and the end result.  But in the midst of all that the uncertainty of when they will get there and how they will get there and what will happen now, they feel security because God is holding them through it all.  In the eyes of any other person the jump was a crazy move to make and any other person should be terrified; but the person knows that because they are following God, He is carrying them through it all.  After the second time through the song I couldn't believe it.  This was describing my situation and what I was feeling.  I have taken this huge leap of faith, having to trust God to provide for me, to lead me, to teach me through everything.  From the outside many people would think that this kind of lifestyle is crazy, having to fund raise, work with students, and do ministry work.  But, I can rest safe and secure in the knowledge that have nothing to fear and that I am not alone because God is holding me through it all.  Even when it feels like I am falling because of the uncertainty, I know that God is holding onto me.  So I am blessed to be in this place where I have no choice but to trust that God will bring me through and provide all I need.  Not everyone get's the chance to understand what it means to trust that God will provide everything.  It might be hard but I know that I will only grow closer to God because of it.  There is no choice but to get closer because the closer to Him I get the safer I will be.  So I can rest assured that: 

I'm not afraid
I know I'm safe
It's a chance but my choice is made
I'm not alone
You won't let go
And I know through it all
You hold me in the freefall

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Freefall by Royal Tailor

Two steps beyond the edge
I can't undo this leap of faith
Takes my breath away
So high above the ground
You've got me hanging in mid air
Between here and there
Now all I have is You

I'm not afraid
I know I'm safe
It's a chance but my choice is made
I'm not alone
You won't let go
And I know through it all
You hold me in the freefall

If I just believe my eyes
I'd see I should be terrified
But I'm so alive
I don't know how or when
But I believe that You'll come through
Lord, I'm trusting You
Can't wait to see what You will do

I'm not afraid
I know I'm safe
It's a chance but my choice is made
I'm not alone
You won't let go
And I know through it all
You hold me in the freefall

I'm falling, I'm falling, I'm falling

You got me falling from the sky with no parachute
Thinking I can fly but I know it's You
Got me up here, no fear, no tears
Mind's clear 'cause I know You're here
Can't wait to see what You will do

I'm not afraid
I know I'm safe
It's a chance but my choice is made
I'm not alone
You won't let go
And I know through it all
You hold me in the freefall

Reflection on My Utmost for His Highest: Missionary Munitions

I read this today and it is 100% true for InterVarsity Staff.  During whatever season God has us in at this moment, whether it is fund development, ministry with students, administrative work, moving to an unfamiliar place, staying in the same place we have been our entire lives, or anything else, are we displaying Christ in the most menial work we do?  Ministry does not start only once I start working with students.  It started much before that.  At home, at school, in the application process, in fund raising, in moving, in training, in my life away from direct contact with InterVarsity, these are places of the most ordinary actions but can be transformed into ministry when I act as Christ did.  When I am an example of Christ in all my surrounds and not just my "ministry job."  So if I say that I am not doing ministry until I start working with students, I am sorely mistaken and not ready to work with them.  I have the opportunity to minister to others in ALL parts of my life, INCLUDING fund development.

Below find the devotional I read.

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September 11th

Missionary munitions

Ministering as Opportunity Surrounds us. If I then, your Lord and Master, have washed your feet, ye also ought to wash one another’s feet. John 13:14.

Ministering as opportunity surrounds us does not mean selecting our surroundings, it means being very selectly God’s in any haphazard surroundings which He engineers for us. The characteristics we manifest in our immediate surroundings are indications of what we will be like in other surroundings.

The things that Jesus did were of the most menial and commonplace order, and this is an indication that it takes all God’s power in me to do the most commonplace things in His way. Can I use a towel as He did? Towels and dishes and sandals, all the ordinary sordid things of our lives, reveal more quickly than anything what we are made of. It takes God Almighty Incarnate in us to do the meanest duty as it ought to be done.
 
“I have given you an example, that ye should do as I have done to you.” Watch the kind of people God brings around you, and you will be humiliated to find that this is His way of revealing to you the kind of person you have been to Him. Now, He says, exhibit to that one exactly what I have shown to you.

‘Oh,’ you say, ‘I will do all that when I get out into the foreign field.’ To talk in this way is like trying to produce the munitions of war in the trenches—you will be killed while you are doing it.

We have to go the ‘second mile’ with God. Some of us get played out in the first ten yards, because God compels us to go where we cannot see the way, and we say—‘I will wait till I get nearer the big crisis.’ If we do not do the running steadily in the little ways, we shall do nothing in the crisis.


Chambers, O. (1986). My utmost for his highest: Selections for the year. Grand Rapids, MI: Oswald Chambers Publications; Marshall Pickering.